Just Annoyed

I am not bummed today but I am annoyed that I sometimes wake up and feel some sort of negative emotion when its so wasteful. I don't wana be sad. I don't wana be depressed. I don't wana argue with people. I don't wana lose friends. I dont wana be angry or hateful or hold on to petty things. I just wana be happy and at peace with myself and those around me. I hate losing people I love and I hate parting in anger. That's so pointless and sad. I don't have a problem apologizing when I'm wrong like I used to but I wish others would be that way too. I don't know. This year will prove decisive to me. I dont know where I'm going or what Ill do but I know I want happiness. I'm tired of the pointless andger and sadness.